Around sixty million skill points I stopped paying attention to my skill points. I remember my joy at forty million. Forty was a big step for me. So was thirty. I had a skill set that sculpted Sugar into a capable combat pilot. I felt fluffy and real.
For a long time, I had placed a huge importance on skill points. I had used them as distant beacons. Points where I could stop and say, "I am here. This is me. I am this thing."
While skill points have lost their meaning, those emotions are still persistent. We will never see announcements made to celebrate the player that has reached the most skill points again. That era of Eve is gone and not what I speak about.
Skill points used to define me. Then, I stopped caring about them. It seems that happened when I was able to fly the things that I wanted to fly. My needs, it turned out, were rather light for a combat pilot. My foray into capitals has given me no love for the unwieldy monsters. My time in battleships has created a deep set distaste. Somewhere between forty and sixty million skill points, I had enough.
Today, I opened my skill queue for the first time in a while. I have 292,914 unallocated skill points. My queue is down to twenty eight days. I think I last set it up to run somewhere around a hundred and fifty. And I complete Caldari Cruiser V before I wake in the morning.
I never wanted to learn Caldari Cruiser V. Caldari ships and I just don't fit together. Yet, here I am, learning it.
Here I am with eighty seven million skill points. I want to ask, "How did I get here?" but I kinda know how.