I decided to label the CSM stuff by CSM so those that want to avoid it can just skip said posts. Until the election happens, while I am doing this thing, the posts will crop up. Such is my writing habit.
On Saturday I was all, "I'm thinking about this a lot and want to, but still unsure," when it came to the CSM thing. I try to write very honestly. Honesty is good. It is simple. But, it is often hard. Sure, Eve is a game but it is still an entire social interaction. In these pages, I lay out my good and my bad. I started doing it simply because I wanted to read that type of thing when I first started playing. Today, there are lots of blogs by newer players. I've noticed that around the year point is where they taper off but the beginning impressions captured are an invaluable glimpse into the game for other people starting. I was honest with my frustrations, my failures, and my successes. The only way I could have the blog that was what I wanted to see was to create it. There is a time where everyone just seems so incredibly knowledgeable and a new player wonders if anyone else ever has the problems that they have.
When it comes to something such as the CSM some may say that I should show more confidence or assuredness. Perhaps, but at the end of the day, I'm who and what I am and that is what people will be voting for. I can only offer what and who I am as a person and player. It just happens that I've captured that in the pages of the blog to make it easier for people to look at.
It never occurred to me that I'd be here.
The CSM is a big job. Some may think that it is not a big deal, unimportant, outmoded, ineffective, etc, etc etc. That does not stop it from being a big job and a big step. It is a step out of the focus of the player and into a more intermediate state between CCP and the player base. It is a lot of time, a lot of energy, and a lot of emotion. It is a responsibility. The CSM member is given the hope, trust, and desires of the players that they represent. It isn't a casual decision to make and like any serious decision I've spent a lot of time thinking about it.
I like trying to make good decisions.
I'm going to run. The official announcement stuff from CCP is not yet up but players are starting their announcements. I am writing up the longer, formal post that will go here (soon) and then on the forums when it is time. That touches on the questions and where I stand. It is a very hard document to write, I'm discovering. It is easy to become scattered. I am working on it and having it proof read. I cover things like low sec, my other interests in game (my market, industry and logistics stuff), the things that I have done that round me as a player (mining, building, incursions, etc) and things I have opinions about (newbies, corp interface, Jaguars). Then, a bit about me (some of my IRL skills that let me play well with others when not in spaceships) because this all done by Sugar the Pirate.
Along the way I've set up a bunch of personal chores to get done before the CSM voting goes live. Most of these are areas that I need to touch again and make sure I am up to date. I'm going to run through the tutorials this weekend for instance. I need to go through and label all of my blog posts for easier searching. Those interested will want to be able to page through the thousand plus posts I have here with a bit more ease than they currently do. I'm going to make a little CSM tab over with my Origins and Guides on the right hand side to collect posts. I've contacted an artist from our Molden Heath group to create some splashy, gaudy art and asked the boys to come up with slogans and posters. I took a minute to ask about removing my Media account in case it becomes a hurdle. Last year, it was fine, but in previous years it has been a problem. I'd prefer to burn time and energy getting it reinstated instead of getting it removed as the deadline looms.
I'm not a politician. I don't actually know what I am doing in this whole campaign thing. Therefore, I am going to go forth and do as I am comfortable with doing. I've received a lot of differing advice on what to do and how to do it. I'm processing it all. At the end of the day, I'm the one tossing myself into the fire. I have to be comfortable with it. I have a stack of notes for things I need to do. My gaming time is going to change a bit for the next few months with a task list that is outside of my normal PvP/market/write time.
I think I will be okay holding onto who and what I am. My ability to say, "No" is in full force at the moment when I dislike suggestions made. I temper it into a no thank you. After all, those who approach me want me to succeed. I appreciate that and I promise to do my best in that area. But, I have to do it in a way I am comfortable with.
Someone said, "You are supposed to do whatever you have to to win. Well not anything but anything within reason." My definition of reasonable and someone elses will probably not quite match. I won't do anything. I will do what I am comfortable and happy with doing. I have to look at myself every day (I brush my hair). I have to want to log in. I've never been very good at following the best and more correct path in Eve and chances are great that my CSM run will follow in style. If I succeed in this, a year from now, I want to bounce through my blog posts with the same enthusiasm that I do now. That means I take this entire adventure as me. People who are going to vote for me based on what they know of me want me as their representative, not some artifice created to gain votes.
I've always functioned under, "What you see is what you get." I have no intention on that changing.