Wednesday, October 11, 2017

Join my corp!

Such was the demand on twitter. I actually leaned back and blinked a bit.

Really? Wow. What a nice feeling. Sure, it was from a delusional person that liked me and forgot what a ninny I am. Also, my utter disconnect with my previous skills. It was still a nice feeling. And, without the CSM thing hanging over me again, I rediscovered what it is like to be sure an offer was about myself.

I do hate that suspicion that I developed. It made me shy away from any type of title in the final dredges of the CSM. That point where I walked away from Sniff, sent Sugar off to a little edge system and gave up undocking or playing. I curled up in my chain and sighed. How was I to tell who wanted me and who wanted the title? I'd had many, many offers that started with, "Come join corp X, we want a CSM in our corp." It was quite a sucky time and left me isolated when I had the most attention.

To channel Elsa again:

"The snow glows white on the mountain tonight
Not a footprint to be seen.
A kingdom of isolation,
and it looks like I'm the Queen."

Unfortunately, such situations leave scars. If you don't work scar tissue, it becomes stiff and painful. Such is much of the Sugar Kyle bit of me. 

One of my biggest problems with joining a corp is that I cannot shut up. The behavior of my corpmates matters. I'm unable to fall very far off of my moral high horse. 

So why don't I go to Eve Uni and Signal Cartel?

Rules. Oh rules. So useful. So important. They drive me bonkers. You see, I am a rule follower. If I went to them I'd have to do what they say. But I don't want to, so I don't. I love Mynxee and I'd looovveee to go to Signal but the credo... I'm don't want to follow it. But even as I type that I wonder if I don't or if I'm just allowing my own stubbornness to control me. I don't want to PvP ether. Of course war decs make other ventures hard.

Hmm.

Time to end the post early and think.

6 comments:

  1. It sounds like you might need to start your own corp, for which you can set the moral standards. I'm sure there are sufficient people that would appreciate an honourable place to live that you'd have enough minions to command. =)

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  2. You would be welcome in Signal Cartel any time. The Credo adds a layer of complexity to EVE Online, true enough -- but it also enables one of the game's best communities to flourish. I know there is no place I'd rather be!

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  3. Can you not alt in some of them, follow the rules with THAT situation and fly another toon when not in the mood for restrictions?

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  4. If your concerned about wardecs just stay NPC forever.

    Otherwise personal corps with few members, which don't hang out in trade or mission hubs all day - and who don't make annoying comments in local drawing attention, don't get many wardecs.

    Both NRDS and NBSI groups have "rules." (NPSI only exists during the fleet, following the FC's "rules," after its over you're back where you came from.) Many groups would welcome you on their ops, even if "NPC" corp, if you had a mind to join them on that day.

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    1. I am not concerned about war decs. I simply find them annoying. If I want to do something like the epic arcs on Sugar for instance, a war dec is annoying and a permadeced corp is even more so. High sec is a part of Eve I don't really know.

      I know everyone has rules. I don't mind rules. However, I pour a lot of myself into my corp. Maybe to much. At the same time, my personality is annoyed by being told I cannot do things. I don't even want to do them. I just don't want to be told that I cannot. This does not extend into a useless tangent about how society doesn't allow me to murder or steal from people. In Eve, being told I cannot do valid game play isn't something that I enjoy.

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  5. Well of course, the door is always open here to you but I understand perfectly if you fear it might not be a fit. Sometimes it's hard to land in just the right spot in EVE. You certainly could check us out on an alt and decide about Sugar later. I don't even need to know who it is :)

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