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I missed my epiphany

I was looking at my Facebook feed. Facebook amuses me. I post pictures of my plants, my dogs, and randomly harass serious people who are silly enough to let me make comments. I find that my appreciation for the ridiculous has increased greatly in the past few years.

One of my former co-workers gave up Facebook for lent. Never having practiced lent, I sit on the side lines and blink as people discuss what they are giving up. Lent has passed and she posted. However, she posted to say that being away from Facebook made her realize how much time she spent on it. She had a great time spending time with the things that really mattered.

It made me think about Eve. I see reference to Eve. I didn't remove CCP from my social media. I rarely delete browser history so I still get random Eve popups. I even got the e-mails about Fanfest and Eve Vegas (Linq, really?).  On my reddit feed, /r/eve pops up at times and I find myself wondering what game they are talking about for a second before I notice the subreddit.

All of this is to say that I have not yet felt the need to stand on a podium and have an epiphany where I cast Eve down and go on about how much value my life now has without it. How I can focus on REAL things.

That drives me nuts. Your interests are real. When you had them they obviously had value because you where interested. They may not be the thing that defines your life. New hobbies and interests may pop up. Obsessions can be rather consuming. None of this makes the thing that you did enjoy and spend so much time on a valueless, waste of time.

I don't hate Eve. I don't find myself, a year after I walked away the finder of true wisdom for what people should do with their free time.

Maybe, I'm broken.

I hope everyone is enjoying themselves. I took the time to delete the spam google missed. Sion has reminded me that I need to take the next step in sharing the memories I wrote after my two CSM terms. I did do that last year.

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  1. :) hi sugar, happy to see you posting. you will get lots of invitations i know, but you are always welcome to sit with us in a "quiet" section of null for a sunday afternoon roam anytime.
    SLy

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  2. Good to see there is life left in these ashes.

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  3. Greetings Ma'am
    I wanted to just take a minute and thank you for keeping your website up and running. I continue to read the information that you have available here and it makes me ponder on my current projects in EVE and find new activities. As a long time EVE player myself I appreciate having information sources like your website.
    I also have enjoyed reading your fan fiction.
    Thank You
    E

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  4. Hi there! It's nice to see a post from you show up in my email today. I'm glad you seem happy and engaged in other stuff. Have you put a saddle on that dog child of yours yet? :)

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    1. He has evened out in the mid seventies. Now he is starting to get broader. One day he will look like his daddy. He can even sleep in the bed some nights now.

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  5. Come back to lowsec! With all the game changes even non-FW lowsec is positively vibrant.

    Shameless plug for Darwinism, the worst pirates everyone's heard of ;)

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  6. The "epiphany" is that Eve was a chapter. If subsequent chapters of a life invalidated the authenticity of all the prior, my life's history would be barren. It is not.

    For the past years, I periodically poke in here to see if there is anything new and to find some treasures of insight that might still be relevant to my enjoyment of Eve.

    Based on your writing, you're a person I would have liked to know, IRL.

    I hope you don't wait six months to write.

    Ken

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  7. Hi! Getting this post in my mails was a nice wee blast from the past :) ...I'm not playing Eve myself these days but I don't like to look at past times as wasted times either

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