The last time I made a killboard entry was January 3rd, 2015. It wouldn't be considered much of a kill. I popped an AFK pod on the station. Before that, it was December 13th, 2014. In December, I was frantically preparing for the Winter Summit which was only a month away. A huge amount of changes had hit Eve and we had changed our personal schedules a little bit.
I was also campaigning for CSM10. In March, I was reelected and I was confronted by someone who pointed out that I was inactive. How could I be a CSM rep when there was nothing on my killboard?
Like many situations, I tried to explain. Like many explanations, mine sounded like excuses. I was busy doing CSM stuff. I worked. I was struggling to time zone well. My husband wasn't travelling so I couldn't come home from work and play with no attention to anything else.
And, as so often happens when someone holds me to a standard I don't believe in, I got mad. I was building capitals at the time. I was running a market. I was doing CSM stuff. I was participating in various educational things. I was so busy that PvPing was something I did not have time to do and I was called inactive. It wasn't the first time and it wouldn't be the last time but I realized I was sick and tired of it.
I walked away from PvP and went on strike from it without telling anyone. It was my own personal pool of bitterness. If I was going to be judged only by what was on my killboard then let them eat cake. I'm pretty sure that is a famous quote. I walked away from PvPing to see if I could bring value without it. The answer, for the environment that I have spent so much of my Eve time in was no. It left me with a lot to ponder and ponder I have been over the months.
But PvPing I have not been. After a year on strike, I still feel the same way about it. I don't actually care. I PvPed because I enjoyed the social aspect of it. My attempts to solo have failed due to boredom. I have no attention span when bored. I don't care about pushing myself for some goal. I don't care about being the best. I just enjoyed hanging out with people but that makes me much to casual to be driven by PvP. I'm driving by my social connections in game.
What does my future hold when it comes to my adventures in blowing up other space ships?
I don't know. It is going to depend on where I wind up and who I wind up with. I enjoy PvP. I also enjoy not PvPing. It, for me is part of the game not why I play it. A year of not doing it makes me feel exactly the same. Maybe a bit less stressed not having to worry about making fleets on time, getting everything else done so I have fleet time, not messing up for other people.
In summary. If you don't PvP for a year you may be less stressed if PvP was something you were neutral to in the first place.
Maybe not my most interesting experiment.