I received a good suggestion about the Archon that I won in the Pod and Planet contest. I'm going to send it back to the contest to be liquidated as part of the future prize pool. I'm not doing it for credit. I am not big into donations. I don't want a sign that says 'Sugar donated X amount of ISK'. I don't care about those things.
I don't want the ship. The reason for donation is that I believe in supporting things that I want to happen. Of course, I could just give ISK. However, I'm a bit of an ISK hoarder. It is easy to give stuff then to give ISK for me. The Pod and Planet contest is, perhaps, one of my favorite things. Over the past four years it has cleaned up my writing in ways nothing else has.
I've often dreamed of becoming an author simply because of love of books is so incredible. Its been a long struggle. Over the years I've had to gain life experience and then writing experience. It is a side effect of Eve that I started to appreciate around the second year I started to blog. The efforts of writing this blog and the things that I have put here over time have improved my writing.
I'm far from good. I'll never get over my spelling hurdles. For every paragraph I have, perhaps, a half dozen corrections. There are some words that I cannot wrap my mind around to spell correctly. Experience is one of those. I mutilate it every single time. But, that is my personal hurdle and no amount of wishing is going to make it go away.
The other hurdle to writing has been life experience. I've gone back, in recent years, and read books that I enjoyed when I was younger. I have found that my understanding of the book changes as I age. In my day to day interactions with people I have learned that behaviors and events that I find ridiculous are in fact, real. While I would have loved to have produced something ten years ago, I've learned that I was not capable of producing anything with the dept that I need for the things I want to write ten years ago.
Outside of writing, donating things always leave me with the worries that I cannot participate after the donation. Etiquette. A beautiful word but a frustrating concept. In a game full of scams and cheating, back room deals and manipulation, I find that I prefer truth and clarity. I may just be being obstinate.
Maybe, I should lay less out on the table. Something to think about. But for now, hopefully I can help support the contest that I want to enter next year.