This has been an odd week for not writing. Sometime, earlier today I realized that someone out there might take it wrong. The reason has been because I've been working. I've been getting home late every day as well thanks to the holidays. As, for the most part a holiday Grinch, its left me with about 2 hours to eat dinner, walk my dogs, and hit the bed before I have to be up for the next twelve.
Now, I have some days off. Not because of Christmas. It is just my normal set of days off. However, work should improve now.
I also learned from Epi's latest post that its normal to reflect and such things. I'll stand up and say, "No thanks!" I normally skip the holidays but people have been super kind to me this year. I even got gifts which leave me feeling a bubbling warmth and a bit of embarrassed lack of worth. I do appreciate it. That someone has taken the time to work through the things that interest and delight me is uplifting in a way few other things are.
Reflection is a useful thing. If taken properly, it lets us not repeat our mistakes. But, I spend a bit to much time in reflection. So, for today, its going to be looking forward. Not New Years promises. That falls under my belief that if something is worth doing its worth doing any day and not one particular one.
When it comes to Eve I will reflect later. For today, I'm going to take pleasure in those that have thought of me. I don't appreciate them enough. So today is for savoring friendship that made them reach out to me, despite my Grinch nature, simply because they like me. Of all the things I have searched for in Eve, that is the thing I have most wanted. I'm going to enjoy it and not worry about the what ifs and what weres.
It also reminds me... I won an Archon in the Pod and Planet contest. I think I'd like to give it away. I just have no idea how or who'd like it. Ideas?