I found myself wistfully swinging my chair back and forth. Tomorrow is Vanguard, a release. I'm not excited about it and that disappoints me. It is not because I am angry at CCP or disappointing in Vanguard's content. It is because the five release schedule has brought so many releases that I no longer get that burbling the world is changing get ready for it glow of excitement that I used to.
It isn't something I thought about until Expansion's came back. Also, attention has been elsewhere. I'm often a few releases ahead in knowledge and or projects. But, today it is warm in the house. I don't feel particularly productive. I'm pondering going to bed early and I realize that tomorrow is release day and it is an, "Okay," type of moment.
Now, realizing my own state of releases, I'm much more excited about the return of expansions. It is not that I am bitter or angry or even dislike the five week schedule. Nosy Gamer was nice enough to sit down and create a condensed list of changes that have happened since the release schedule started. It was something I had planned to do but now I can mooch off of his work.
What I will miss most about tomorrow is not being able to listen to Diz muse about the battlecruiser changes. I hope that some point in the future, I'll get to give them a try and that I will find myself pleased with the outcome. I have refused to fly Hurricanes since the nerf almost three years ago because I refused to add to any stats that said Hurricanes where being used as often as pre-nerf. And I've whined about them a lot since then. I couldn't even go, "I'm done talking about them," because really I wasn't. I was bitter and mostly bit my tongue because frothing bitterness wasn't going to make things go back to how they used to be.
Plus, I have this thing where I try to let changes roll on and adapt to them before I go about seeking change.
That leaves me excited on one hand to see what the changes are going to do out in space and a bit wistful for the past on the other. I'm not a theory crafter or an EFT/Pfya warrior. I always need to take my ships out into space and fly them around to get a feel for them.
I think that I understand the positive response the return of expansions has generated. Now it is for CCP to strike the balance.