CSMX is a pretty amazing title.
Over the last few weeks I've had this little scenario play out in my head where if I got elected I'd write this whole trolling post about how awful I'd be. I decided that it'd be tacky and I'd not do it but I'd still talk about it anyway. It's late here, almost two in the morning and I need to get to bed but some words don't wait to be said.
You all helped me make it to the CSM for a second term. Thank you. You also gave me a permanent seat and I am staggered by that. I really can't comprehend all that it means right now and I'll let it sit and ferment for a bit.
Last year I said that my time on the CSM wasn't about me. It was about everyone else. I'm a conduit between the players and CCP. I feel that has been a successful and productive process for all of it and I see little reason to change what I have been doing in this last year. I do have some ideas to improve communication in some broader ways and I'll go over them later once they mesh in my head a bit.
I wanted to say thank you. Its such a small word for how staggering the entire situation is. I struggle to process all the kind things that you all have said about me. I had only hoped, a year ago, that I'd be able to bring about change and improvements for the players and for Eve itself. Its shocking that its happened and I look around at people so pleased with me and I almost don't know what to do. I never expected things to go as they have and its more than I can easily process right now.
In the middle of this something small but incredibly sweet happened. My husband sent me a message asking if the results were in and how I did. I told him that I had won and he congratulated me. Now, my husband is not an Eve player. He does not mind that I do the CSM stuff. He has been very supportive of something that I have been passionate about. He is also in Hong Kong which means he had to ether set an alert or just pay attention to the time to know that I'd find out about the results around now. He is a wonderful man but the story isn't just to brag about him. It's to let you know what this means to me and the knowledge those around me have of it.
I take the CSM seriously. It isn't always rainbows and butterflies. It can be very hard sometimes to deal with people in emotional and frustrated states. It can be a joy to deal with them as something that has chewed at them for years is resolved. The CSM has absorbed most of the game of Eve for me but I'm okay with that. I gave you some of Eminem's lyrics a few days ago and they are very, very true for me.
This is a time where we have a chance to make a difference. This is not every day. It is not every player. It is not something that you waste. I'm not doing this out of habit or because I don't have anything else to do. I'm doing it because I have received the chance to try to save the world. I can't turn that down.
There is a busy year coming forward. There is a lot of good things on the table. I just want to remind you all that as you congratulate me remember to congratulate yourself to. This has never been about me. It has always been about you. I cannot do this alone. I am nothing without the time and energy you all give me to enable me to do things.
So keep it up. You all have a lot of work to do this year. Don't slow down on me now.