For anyone that has missed it, I am Sugar Kyle and I am running for CSMX, the tenth Council of Stellar Management in Eve Online. But this post isn't about that. This post is about my efforts to pick who I will vote for on February 25th, 2015.
My number one choice will be myself. However, once the candidate list is released on the 23rd, I feel that it is a bit of a responsibility to write up a ballot this year. I won't cover everyone. I'll cover the top of my ballot and a few people that I find interesting and may or may not add to my own but I would recommend to people with other interests.
I've said before that I worry that I will not be elected. I've received amazingly kind reviews from people ever since I announced my decision to run. However, I'm a creature of planning. That means I have to look at a future where I will not be on CSMX. That makes my voting a serious thing for me.
I ran for CSM9 because I love low sec. I wanted it to be represented. I did not want another year without someone on the council without a representative for low sec. Once on the CSM I found that there were things I could put time and energy behind, outside of my initial focus. It is not something that you know until you have it in front of you. But once there, it seems silly not to work on it as well just because it was not on an initial campaign platform. For some that makes sense and for others they ask me if that is my responsibility. I will say it is.
I started halfway through CSM7's term. I knew little about things and it was not until CSM8 was elected that I started paying attention. Hans was on the CSM at the time as a FW representative for low sec. This is a good thing but in the Retribution patch notes a single sentence changed my fate and the way that I looked at the CSM. The static DED complexes were removed from the game and with them came the death to a section of the community that I lived in. That is a longer story and one rehashed many times over. It set the seed of representing the player and hearing the quiet voices of smaller groups. When there was no low sec focused rep for CSM8 things had to change and sometimes that means you take that responsibility upon yourself such as I did for CSM9.
When I look at what I want in a CSM representative I want someone who will listen to me. It may be ideal to have someone who knows my lifestyle but there is easily a chance that they will not. That can be substituted for someone who will listen and consider other parts of the game. I want a representative that would listen to me even if they did not know me and care for my concern as if it was their own. That is the representative that I try to be and that is the type of person that I will add to my ballot.
There are others who make fine CSM members for their goals and focuses. I will not give them my vote because I have one chance to pick a person who I can give that hope and concern to and know it will be cared for. My second pick would be for someone who at least would care for the play styles that keep me coming back to this game over and over again even if they are not the person who would care for my personal concerns.
People who dismiss others or their concerns, especially when they have no personal knowledge of those things, will not be on my list. Nor will those who say that they listen but never show any follow through. I don't need a loud, flashy CSM member. I need someone who is willing to care about someone they do not know. Voting is highly personal to me. It is trust. It is hope. I give none of those things lightly. Even in a game.
My list will not be political. It will be personal. I have people that I like who I would not vote for because while they will be outstanding members of the CSM it will be on their terms and for their reasons. My reasons, my hopes, my joys, my wishes whispered in the dark... none of those things concern them. And while confidence is important and a personality that can handle conflict and being told that they are wrong, I still need them to care about me because that is why they ran. Being bold and vivacious is fine but force of will and nature does not also have to mean pushy and not considerate of others.
The personal strength of an individual is important. CCP will not always agree. They will not always heed what is said. They will have a different task list and a different agenda. Personal energy, pro-activity, the ability to hold one’s temper while being adaptable.. those things matter and I want them in who I select. The hardest part is separating if I like the person from if I feel they are the right CSM candidate for me.
In a way I indulge myself during my own term. The things that I do? They are the things that I want. I try to make myself the CSM that I want to vote for. But, I have to make sure that there is a CSM to take care of me should I not be elected again. And then there are the complex things like roll over votes and such.
It is odd to hear the clock ticking on the end of the term. I still have so much going on. And there are lists, and lists of things still to do. Add in candidate watching and it is amazing how Eve stuff can eat up the time. I'm guessing that the massive influx of candidates came from the removal of the public name requirement. But I don't know and I'm not going to worry toO much on it. As with many, I have my eyes on a handful of people who satisfy my requirements.