Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Darkness in Winter - Day Four

I woke up late. I woke up and realized that my alarm had not woken me up. I could not help but curse and check my clock to see that it was eight twenty and I needed to be at the office at nine. I'm glad I prepare everything and shower in the evenings. I rolled out,dressed, and made it out of the door by 0835 to make it to the office five minutes to nine.

We hit the ground running and I talked a lot. I feel as if I don't shut up sometimes and I'm not used to talking like that. However, it is why I am here, so I bite down my discomfort and just charge ahead and hope for the best. We are pushing every session to the max and sometimes over the edge of time. It seems that the questions and thoughts just bubble up and up and up. Our new combined access should be good to help fill in some of the gaps after this. I've been writing a lot of notes to help me fill in bits and pieces after things.

I was also super hungry at lunch and happily gorged after missing breakfast. It was a chicken pasta with broccoli, maybe an Alfredo of some type.

Back to meetings and a lot of information is good. As with last time, I find myself on both sides of arguments. It is not all about me the individual it is about me the representative. If I only discussed my personal interests  or likes, I'd have much less to say. That reflects on a question in my CSMX candidacy thread where I am ordered to answer a very large, complex question with a 'yes' or 'no'. I told them I could not answer. I can't. Maybe once I might have stood firmly on one side or another and in some areas I do. I'll brawl people about the stuff I am passionate about but so much of my time as a member of the CSM has become about representing people who are not me. I feel that it is my job to tell the entire story because I cannot always agree with people and they will not always agree with me. It is no longer a simple time where things are one way or another. After speaking to hundreds of people about a vast amount of things in the game things are complex and every situation has to be boiled down into its pieces and applied to the game by what it is, not what it sounds like or what may be.

For the evening, we had a long session and finished up with the minutes for day one being published. Yesterday, I noted that this format means nuance is lost. It also means the minutes are going out super fast. There are pros and cons to both methods and while my information oriented self hums with distress, I'm currently sitting here at almost midnight working on today's session to try to add in some detail and make sure things are clear.

There are a lot of things being presented and done. Things that we have to tilt our chairs back on and think of how we'd use them, how others would use them, and what those implications may be. I'm rereading the days session and the size and scope of things is enormous. The CSM changes things. It changes the layout of the game. The summit only emphasizes that in some ways. And at the end of it I hope that people are pleased with my effort. I do not expect everyone to agree with everything I say or try to do. That cannot happen when I offer multiple viewpoints up. I do hope that I have held myself accountable and that my efforts have been adequate.

I got a lot of good feedback yesterday and I've picked up some more today. I'll try to get it all crammed into the sessions. If not, its a good starter point for our new tools with CCP. I've already picked up a project to work on over the next few weeks. And for now, its half twelve (as corbexx would say) and I need to get to bed. Tomorrow I need to be on my A game.

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  1. "I'll brawl people about the stuff I am passionate about but so much of my time as a member of the CSM has become about representing people who are not me. I feel that it is my job to tell the entire story because I cannot always agree with people and they will not always agree with me."

    And this is in large part what makes you such a great CSM representative. Thanks for always being willing to listen, no matter how crazy some of our ideas may be!

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  2. I really like reading the minutes so quickly after the meeting is held, thanks Sugar!

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    1. While having the minutes quickly is nice, I have to say that they really do lose a lot of detail. I've read through the first few sessions, and really they hardly tell me anything. There is a lot of "Topic X was discussed," but I don't get any feel for how much attention it was given, or how in-depth the discussion was. Was there a 20-minute debate on this single topic, or was it just mentioned in passing before moving onto the next bullet item?

      These "minutes" give a nice quick snapshot of what happened, but aside from that they are very empty. I do hope that there are plans to do more detailed write-ups after the fact.

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    2. I wish I disagreed with you but I don't.

      There is a lot of discussion about what the minutes should be. They change from CSM to CSM and session to session. What I wrote last time is what I think minutes should be. Not everyone agrees. This format is fast and covers everything neatly but as you said you lose the depth and the fine details of the discussion.

      It was brought up it after a complaint about the security session and we will discuss it further.

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