Then my fan died today which left me without a machine for much of my time. However, a trip to the store and some searching and things are back to normal. I'm still in an odd state where I feel as if I have things to say but not much is coming out.
My normal method for that is to write through it anyway even if I have no point and make little sense along the way. With Eve Vegas past us and the release of the minutes coming up I think I am rather wound up. I should just start writing my halfway through my term post because I think that is what is clogging up the writing.
Then there is also negativity. Eve Vegas is a very positive place and stepping outside of it is much like walking wet and naked into a blizzard. It is a bit surprising and not the most pleasant thing one can do. When compared to the positive energy I had just left, it was a bit disappointing. But then, no reality is always fun and pleasant just as no reality is only negativity.
Over the weekend I talked to a lot of people about a lot of different things. I talked about markets as much as I talked about low sec. There has been some follow up from that. Niden for instance asked me a bunch of questions about industry and trade. I often don't feel as if I'm the most qualified person to ask these things and I tend to say that. His questioning thou, about industry and markets and the coming of Phoebe fit neatly into what I was doing which was restocking Bosena and being frustrated at how life, the universe, and everything else can make something that seems simply so damn hard.
When I first started TCS, I did a lot of my own moving. I slowly started to split it due to the sheer number and value of items I was moving. Once I reached the CSM I turned it fully over to others. I was using Red Frog and spent a good bit of time venturing into private hauling. The reliability and speed of Red Frog kept me a stable customer. My use of independent hauling services has been very hit or miss. However, Red Frog has added a huge surcharge for shipping through Udema. I don't blame them but it has caused me yet another layer of difficulty when it comes to getting stuff moved. CODE took over the haulers channel and they have since moved and are restarting under a new name.
Instead of one huge things it is a series of little things that causes me to struggle. It seems like such a simple thing, moving stuff around and selling things. Just press button and receive ISK. I just write a few contracts, buy a few items... but it never works quite that neatly.
I've tried PushX before and I am trying them again. For regular, vanilla contracts they tend to sit till they are close to expiration. This is still a bit better then public contracts which are hit or miss when not on regular routes. For regular routes public contracts are the best way to go.
But I'm not good at regular routes. I'm not good at sticking to the sure thing of selling at trade hubs and working the market there. Hell, I'm not even capable of doing the sensible thing when it comes to industry and instead follow my own fancy most of the time. That makes simple things in Eve absurdly frustrating at times.
But that frustration is what is so damn cool about the game. The fact that Phoebe is causing changes that are rippling in expected and unexpected ways amazes me. I absolutely love the life of the game. I hate being inconvenienced but at the same time the way changed slam into each other and make new and different pathways is amazing.
There has been a lot of change in this last six months for me. Some of it has been great and some of it exhausting. Phoebe will bring more then I think we assume and expect. It may just be my absolute lack of speculative ability kicking in. I think I'll work on my Sunday post and on my six month post and see if that clears things up for me. Life, in general is back to normal as well with no travel plans for a bit.