Five weeks until Eve Vegas. I was looking at the Facebook page for it and reading the announcements.
WIth CCP involved this year it is a much larger event than last year. I'm in a strange point of hopeful and resigned. This will be my third Eve related event. I have enjoyed the previous two. Hovever, neither have been the world shattering events that I had hoped they would be. I blame this squarely on myself.
It might be surprising due to the volume of text I place upon this Blog, but I am a rather quiet and reserved person IRL. I define myself as boring. I am truly happy at home curled up in my computer chair fighting off my cat's incessant demands for my lap. I lost that battle the other morning. However, I normally win. But, back to the topic.
Eve Vegas.
The last two Eve Events I have found myself having a hard time meeting people. Considering I cannot even bump into a conversation in Team Speak I'm not overly surprised by this. It causes me to hover on the edges and listen. Unless I am burned up over a subject. Then I'll go and make myself heard. Such as the Low Sec talk and some of the Dust talks regarding Molden Heath. Shyness, embarrassment, my distaste for being the center of attention in public all vanish when I have an agenda.
But, I have done a poor job of meeting people. It has been fascinating watching the Eve Famous and their orbit of followers. It is interesting seeing the engagement and interactions of people. I feel that I kind of float about the edges observing but not really joining in.
It made me look at the Pub Crawl which looks to be very interesting. I'm rather sure that I am going to sign up for it. It feels a bit wasteful since I am paying for Alcohol I will not consume. I guess my over expensive soda will have to compensate. I normally avoid social groups but I'm going to go for it. At the worst, I hate it. At the best, I have an interesting time.
And maybe I will meet people before the final day. Who knows. I won't hold my breath. I'm not outgoing in this respect and I doubt I will suddenly become so. But, I will try this. It will at least give me something to write about.
And maybe I will meet people before the final day. Who knows. I won't hold my breath. I'm not outgoing in this respect and I doubt I will suddenly become so. But, I will try this. It will at least give me something to write about.
I think the word you're looking for is introvert. I don't know if you've heard of it before or not, but it is a type of personality where one gains energy by being alone, as opposed to extroverts, who gain energy by being around other people.
ReplyDeleteI know. It is just an easy buzz word to fall back on. I am very much the introvert. Large groups of people exhaust me.
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