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I Cheated on Eve

I had a little break from Eve. There is a good chance no one noticed. At times my blog is written a week or so in advance. This time I hoarded posts that were not time relevant. The side effect was that things I wrote a week or two ago obtained a random relevance to current actions in the game. I was rather impressed with my ability to predict the future through musings.

My break was for my friends visit. I decided that while she was here, I'd not log in. I did break that a bit by updating Sugar's skill queue. I also scribbled out a blog post about a topic that has been bothering me a bit while she was in the shower at one point. In general, I refrained from posting although I did read a lot of stuff. My phone, after all, is but an extension of myself.

I played the Last of Us (not worth brand new price IMO) and finally purchased Red Dead Redemption.

I tried very hard not to Eve. I figured that a break would be good for me. I do play the game daily after all. Maybe some of my recent moodiness would finally shake off. I missed Eve. It was the itch of an addict. I sat at my desk to do other things and made myself not log in. It was pleasant to remind myself that I am in control of my addiction (for the most part).

Eve has been making me sad of late. I realized that a lot of my in game unhappiness is a reflection of my IRL job happiness. It just eats away at me. Hopefully, one of my job searches will become productive. I also realize a lot of the 'blog sphere drama' of late had depressed me as a writer. I'm trying to remind myself to ignore some things and just keep slogging along for whatever reason I do so.

I did also decide that I need to spend a bit more time playing and a bit less time hovering over market figures. I believe it will help my pensive mood. When I spend to much time thinking and talking to myself I get dull.

I've been a good girl and updating my 'other' stuff blog Downtime Hours with absolute nonsense such as whatever I happen to be reading and playing that isn't Eve. I also wrote a review of the Last of Us and put it on Game Skinny. I'm sure I didn't do it right. I'm not sure I care. I've always been more focused on doing things honestly. We played it for the last four days and has a lot of positives and a lot of negatives. On a positive note, I think I figured out the problem that has caused me to spend the last month not getting anywhere on my latest fan fiction.

That's it. Now I'm doing damage control on TCS from my stay away. I'm rather pleased with the outcome so far.

Comments

  1. Breaks are good - they give you perspective.

    My current little hi-sec experiment had turned into an de-facto break as well, and made me rediscover books.

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