Wednesday, July 3, 2013

A Look Back

I was digging through my drafts and found one partially written from February of this year. I think I just got distracted as I often do with my writing.

Back in February I was called risk adverse for not flying my Cynabal and instead flying my Jaguar into a suddenly fleet. I switched out ships because I had never taken a Cynabal into combat at that time. I was still very unsure of the ship and the ships abilities. The Jaguar is my default. I'm comfortable in it. I can relax and focus on doing my job in fleet in it vs succumbing to every wild derp I come across. I take a while to get comfortable in new ships. I often take them out and do PvE until grow comfortable with the response and behavior and abilities.

So. There I was. Called risk averse. Instead of sulking away or making excuses, I confronted the person. Many people consider me to be laid back and easy going. People who do not know me well have never experienced me irritated or angry and because of that they are often surprised at how quickly and how aggressively I will get in someone's face if I feel the need. Normally, I just let things roll of my back. But when irritated my more aggressive nature will roll to the surface.

Once confronted the person who said it immediately took it back and said it was a 'joke' when I questioned it.  Let's be honest here.  People say things and it is not a joke.  "Joke" is the cover up to the statemented to soften the malice.

People will be people.  Below the comment is an interesting question that I decided to look at.

Am I risk averse?  To some, I am.  I don't throw myself into everything and I like to pick and chose my battles if I can. Sometimes, I can't. I make the best of the situation at that point. Sometimes there is no best situation and you just make a decision and go with it. Of late, I've been losing Jaguar's to gateguns trying to hold on till that very last second. I push myself at my own pace. It is just slower and less exciting than what other's would do.

Everyone defines risk very differently. One common argument is calling kiters risk averse for not brawling. Now, these are often people taking on greater numbers and using tactics to take the fight instead of raw, physical power. Is it risk or is it not? Is taking a fight, out numbered and relying on tactics risk free somehow or is that just another expression of frustration when people do not get the fight to go the way they want it to go.

Other's would say that a Jaguar is an expensive frigate to take into battle and I could use something cheaper. I use Jaguar's for a particular reason (one being that I utterly enjoy them) and their cost is worth the fact that they do what I want to do and get done what I want to get done. Yet for some, its a ridiculous amount of spend on a frigate.

But I I have written on aversion before. It doesn't matter in the end. It is the choice of the individual to decide. There is always a balance between what someone will do and what they will get out of it. Some will measure me as frivolous while others will say averse. In a game with few hard rules and creative choices, it is always going to be something that someone likes and something that someone else hates.

1 comment:

  1. In our fleets, I prefer a pilot comfortable in his ship, well versed in its capabilities then someone who has no idea where its limits are.

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