Skip to main content

Money Out - Assets In

I tend to vastly under estimate how much I purchase to do things. Some of that comes from the fact that I tend to use containers. Everything is neatly sorted into its own home and I never see it unless I need to fit a new ship. I don't change fits but instead keep several ships of the same type with different fits around to switch into at need.

Now that we as players are more used to the new Unified Inventory with its trees and the price calculator as well as the fact that it has become a smoother, more streamlined and customization opportunity, it's a lot easier to calculate your net worth.

I was collapsing down one of my secondary bases the other day. When I dumped everything into my Bosena hanger, which has no containers, I had to giggle at the almost three billion ISK value for the hanger.  Once I sorted out my drugs that I had pulled from the other market due to the move, I still had a billion and a half ISK worth of modules and ammunition. My ship hanger has an estimated value of 1.7 billion in hulls and most of those are fitted. That is where all my money went to.

I then sorted out the loot from the modules I use.  That thinned things down a little bit. I seems that in January, when I was going to make an effort to go and find solo fights I spent a lot of ISK on the project with guns and modules so that I could easily refit. However, I never wanted to do that project. I was pushing myself towards it because I believed it was what I was supposed to do to prove my value to everyone. To prove that I was worth having around and other such aspects of my personal insecurities as a member of my corporation and someone that PvPs in general. No one was forcing me to do this. I simply felt valueless when I looked at everyone that I knew and their aggressive take PvP head on and attack and kill things.

But, I never wanted to do it. It isn't how I work. I don't actually want to run around solo. It is not one of my desires. I like fleets just fine. I also like doing other things. Instead, trying to force myself to do what I felt was wanted of me had the opposite effect and I instead dug my heels in deeply to do what I wanted to do with a fuck the world vibe to it. If it meant I wound up alone and unwanted then so be it.

Of course, I was overly dramatic and having my own personal version of relativity  None of that happened. No one gives any fucks that I don't solo and didn't start.  Leaving me with the side effect of having a massive stack of modules. Fortunately  at the same time, I also had my Jaguar epiphany due to the Crimewatch changes and all of those frigate sized modules are very useful and relevant to me.

I got rid of all of my Hurricanes. I like my ships agile and with the changes the Hurricane is no longer the sleek beast it was. Maybe if they introduce a faction version that has a more reasonable agility I will have a reason to fly one again.

Now, I find myself needing to buy a stack of interceptors and assault frigates in both Gallente and Minmatar flavors. I am also going to switch my ship for BlOps dropping from my Loki to a Proteus. I dislike my Loki so I might as well try something that is meant to be a brick tanked immobile armor ship and indulge in its tackle abilities and see if I like that better. I won't know if I like a ship until I try to fly it. I don't fly based off of stats and what is 'more better' so every ship is an individual.

Of course that means spending ISK. I have ISK spending days. Days where I have decided to do something and buying what I need is not the chore that it normally is. Since I must spend money on this Proteus and its subsystems, I might as well take the time to spend money on other things. Why not some Dramiels? Why not another Daredevil and try them out. While I'm feeling rebellious, I will not properly fit them with shiny modules because shiny modules make me not want to fly my ships. I will T2 fit them and if that makes me a bad then so be it. I'm tired of following along meekly, doing what people tell me to do because it is the 'best' and winding up unhappy and uninterested. I can't even explain how much I allow that to tint my game and leave myself in positions I do not want to be in.

Running TCS has helped me to understand the value of assets and see beyond liquid ISK. I can't see very far but it is an improvement from where I was. I am also in a phase of trying things out. I'm ungrounded as to what I want to be and where I want to go.

A little bit of rebellion. A little bit of ISK spending. A few new things. Just another day.

Comments

  1. It's a good thing that you don't do as the others expect you (or rather what you think they expect). It's your life, your time, your ISK, so your call!

    ReplyDelete

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

CSMX - Post #20

Summer is here and CCP is very much out of the office. Sion made a good point in wondering why everyone leaves Iceland when it has its best weather. What it means is that all is mostly quiet on the dev blog front. There are some things happening but the dev blogs and news announcements have not yet happened. The skill points were delivered on Tuesday so yay for unallocated skill points.

Over in CSM chat, there has been a lot of back and forth about sov and measuring the impact and success of things so far. I can say that CCP and the CSM are watching it. The pros and cons are coming in pretty hot and heavy. Some are being looked at now. Some have to see how things are going and if and how the direction needs to be tweaked.

In my corner, I'm starting to gather things together. The summit is in seven or so weeks. In between then and now I need to gather up my question list and write down a few topics of discussion. I'm starting now because I have personal vacation at the end of A…

The Charm of the Familar

With a few picked up a shifts at work due to the holidays. I pondered logging in but I didn't have the energy to do so. Being able to say no to logging in is pleasant. Just as my youngest puppy interrupts me every fifteen minutes to pee, going to sleep instead of staying up is also pleasant. I had a lot of short slept nights when I was active in a corporation.

My next plan has been to learn how to scan again. The new map is in and I need to refresh my scanning skills. My hold is full of probes. My ship appears to be reasonably set up. I remembered how to hit my F key to cloak. In fact, I hit it a bit to fast. I need to get the ebb and flow of the tic back down.

I am also rusty in my paranoia. I idly switch to another window to research breadbowls and the soup I want to make later. Then I remember I am sitting, decloaked, off of a gate somewhere. Whoops. I did figure out a breadbowl recipe and soup as well.

The question was where do I relearn to scan? I need somewhere off the beate…

My Skill Queue went empty

The thing I miss most is having mail. When I log in I often check that line to see if I have mail. Unfortunately, I do not. I am not surprised. There is no reason for me to have mail. Yet, I do miss it.
In some ways having regular eve-mail was the moment that I was most connected. I had people to talk with and engage in. It was the closest I've ever been to having a normal social level that I was comfortable with. This shows you how introverted I am that eve-mail filled up my social meter. 
I log in and look around. Normally, I am looking for the people that I do not have other social contacts with. It is very, very easy to lose those relationships. The binding glue of the game has dissolved and friendship, as an adult, can take work. Even in this information time. Eve gave me things to talk about. Without it, I remember that I don't talk very much. Unless it is about dogs and driving my co-workers crazy when people come to me for advice they won't follow.
Since I logged …