The Other Side

There is someone I used to be terrified of that I have done more killing with then against recently. It is rather funny how things change in those ways.  He almost killed my hauler the other day because I forgot to tell him I was picking something up and see if he minded not killing me.  I got a bit lax.

In that, it was my fault.  I really, really should have checked. I thought he was busy or AFK and now I realized I misread those signs.  So I undocked, and he undocked behind me. It's a spit out station as well. One of the ones that shoots you out from the underside like a high velocity fart and the undock is about the width of a hair.  

I stopped as soon as the grid loaded.  He undocked behind me in a Vigilant.  I hit dock but I was out of the dock range.  "Setting course to docking perimeter."  Its like Aura is laughing at you as a Vigilant webs your Prorator and you start to burn.  Stations are the number one place to pop cloaky haulers. 

I debated switching to Sugar's window and trying to get his attention  I decided not to.  After all, i'd made the call.  I figured I'd follow through to losing everything and sigh at my decision.  I just spammed dock.  It was all I could think of.  I was in structure and then the screen went black.  To me utter amazement I loaded in the station.

Did I mention I was picking up a Cynabal BPC along with some other stuff?  I was being very, very stupid and I normally know better.  I normally do better.  However, I was selling this BPC to Hurome. I'd built the ones I purchased from Ender some months ago.  After I purchased three from him I proceeded to pop another three for myself.  I built two and this one has been hanging around.  Hurome asked me if I had one the other day and it just happened that I did.

Obviously someone wanted Hurome to have this BPC because Uber should have killed me at that moment.

But that is why Eve is fun.  I was moving some high value stuff and getting it out of low sec and I said to someone, "It wouldn't be fun if it wasn't a panic attack the entire time with scouting and gate checking and worrying about bumping the jump freighter."  And it wouldn't be.  I don't want that adrenaline rush where I'm going.  I want it to be uneventful and my stuff moved and my ISK made.  But without that chance of loss it would not be as fun.

In a way, I like when I'm on the other side of the guns.  It is not the same as when I am in a fight.  I'm defenseless and pewpew is not going to save me.  It is humbling.  I made sure to check before I undocked the next time.

Yet, I find the changes amusing.  Someone that once regularly hunted me down now is someone that I have responded to to assist on kills and called in turn to assist me.  If he had killed me I'd have made sure to put a sad face into chat and promised to be smarter the next time.  I do love that about this environment.  The social structure is volatile and complex.  I remember when I was so very new to it that my only reaction was fear.