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It Must be Packet Loss?

I have lost my mojo.  A long time ago, somewhere around yesterday, I was able to communicate with people in a clear manner.  I would type words and they would normally understand those words.  Even through all of the typos and the grammar and the random internet speak and slang, across the language gaps and over the emoticons and past the shining pillars of the Eve Lexicon they would understand me.

And suddenly, in one moment it is all beyond me.  My fingers have become cold and clumsy (even with my fingerless gloves on, so warm, so nice, luvz them).  I was watching a five day old player say that if they did not get into Eve Uni they would leave the game when their trial ran out.  They found the Eve community to be cold and hard to enter.  They were disappointed because they had heard that it was an open and welcoming community but so far they found that the hurdles of socialization were to great and the options in Eve to vast.  Without Eve Uni's guidance they didn't see how they would progress in the game.

I'm a big believer in finding what you want to do.  I also understand that it is a big grey mist that you thrash around in until that happens.  I told them that I was sad they'd give up so easily when there were other communities that would keep them company and help them along without the corporation ticker.

They said that I was belittling them and calling them a troll.  I was like WTF.  So, we went around in circles as I politely attempted to rephrase myself while asking how was I trolling?  Eventually, scolded into a private conversation I found out that he assumed I was being sarcastic because it was the internet.  He asked me if I was new to the internet that I'd not assume that everyone was being a dick with everything they said.

Well... new... no.  Not really. I was more functioning that in a help chat in a game that is known for its community when people tell you not to give up and that there are other places to help you through the confusing times and to give the game a chance you might think they were being helpful.

It appears I was wrong.

Okay.  I managed to get over that. I wandered off and did productive things to fill my day off like a good girl.  Then I met someone new in local and I said hi and we chatted.  I asked him what brought him down into the area and if he knew us since he said he was looking at old contacts after a period of inactivity.

Again, I was accused of sarcasm   Sigh.  Woe is me.  So many people to talk to and all of them assuming that I am being a bitch.  It'd be different if it was spirited discussion or we had just fought.  These have been random conversations when the automatic reaction is that the other person must be in some way mocking you.

It is what I hate the most about the internet in general.  I'm not someone that suffers at the politeness of society. I don't chaff at the bonds and long to run around and say outrageous things for whatever reason people do. Hopefully I will get my mojo back.

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  1. Some days are like that, but tomorrow I'm sure you'll run into more reasonable people. Honestly I think a lot comes from self-confidence: if a person goes around constantly feeling they have to defend themselves against sarcasm, insults and scams then all the communication they see will be in that filter. Tomorrow you'll find someone more eager and open-minded and they'll want all the advice you can give them on D-scan and lowsec. :)

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