Eve gives me a particular desire to participate in things that I
would otherwise ignore. This is one of them. Blog Banter 42
convinced me to scribble down a brief summary of major events in the year.
Now that the year is ending and people are doing the New Years thing and
writing summaries and resolutions and such things.
Because I
participate in the community I wind up reading things that I might otherwise
not. Then I start thinking on the subjects and depending on that I may or
may not write about them. My first draft of this particular blog post was
very grumpy and moody due to the fact that I am not a Holiday person and look
forward to life settling back down to normal.
But the future.
The future in Eve is always constant It is not a 'This is a
new year' type of thing because the game requires from many a significant amount of
planning. Skill plans, financial plans, character pathways,
social interactions, various events, all of these things trail into the future
and drag along the players with them.
I'm at a new
year way point junction simply because it falls in line with
everything else. My first year in Eve has just passed, I've been writing
the blog for a year, and a year in general is a good point to say "I have
done this let me access where I am and where I am going." It just
happens to fall in with the entire "New Year" thing. Which is
only a date celebrated as the New Year just 'cause some stuff.
I am invested in
the game and I am invested in my future in the game. I receive a lot of
pleasure from playing Eve. Having slipped into the game to the point that
I am at, I stand at a brilliant pathway of choices and decisions.
That is a very pretty way to say that I need to shit or get off of the
pot.
One of the biggest
things is that I need to spend some time going out and doing things by myself.
Many people start doing things by themselves and eventually get help.
I started out with help and support and have not spent time doing things
alone. Oh, I live in Low Sec by myself and I take care of myself
but that's not what I am talking about.
I'm talking about
PvP.
Instead of a huge,
laundry list of things to do over the next year I've selected down one primary
goal that I'd like to accomplish to move myself forward. That goal
is to get out by myself and try my hand at some of the things rolling around
inside of my head. And I think that I need to do it without my boys.
I'm leaning on them to much in some ways.
But, not always
alone. Lain has been sweet enough to volunteer to come with me and
allow me to derp him into things. He even seems rather excited about it.
It also means I tackle the other, secondary issue that I have been
avoiding which is some form of Fleet Command. Lain has told me that he
shall blindly follow my orders into glory or explosions or both and shall enjoy
himself.
Its not that I
expect to run out and own space. I've purchased a stack of
frigates and destroyers and fits for them. It's not about winning its
about developing a comfort level with doing some of these things.
It's my goal to push myself beyond my comfort zone a bit. So I am
going to die. A lot. I am going to try things out I normally might
shy from. I'm going to try to follow through with the decisions
I believe I should be making and see what comes from it. I've
learned a lot over the last year.
I'm going to
stretch out my wings a bit and learn to stand by myself.
It is not that I
have a huge desire to be a solo pilot. If so, I'd not so gladly accept
Lain's company. It's that I need to spend some time forcing myself to
make my own decisions. Instead of going, "I wonder if this, because
of that" I plan to act upon that musing and do some follow through.
I said before that I learn best by learning before I do.
Now I need to go
and do.
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