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Its Like a Rainy Day

I tried to do three things reference Eve and writing today. I failed at two and succeeded at one.

My success and setting up, organizing, and chopping through half of my second 'story' for this contest. I can only hope what I write is acceptable. I am looking at building permanent pages for them. Once I am satisfied, I will add another link set to my side bar. Or, perhaps, I will add a side bar to the left side finally. I'm not sure. I am pretty sure that I will finish up the first one tonight or tomorrow and hopefully the second by Monday evening.

My first failure was my continuing failures to write about Blog Banter 40. I wrote a lot. Pages and pages of words. Yet nothing I wrote captured the topic of the blog banter. The topic, as I understand it is:

"Given the scope of the sandbox, what part should eSports play in EVE Online and what other formats could provide internet spaceship entertainment for spectators and participants alike?"

I cannot write about this. I have spent the last two days trying. All that pours from my finger tips is my absolute unhappiness with sports and what sports do to the environment. I tried to carve those into something but my words carried nothing but my own emotions on a wave of sadness. I can not write about the topic for how I feel about the topic. I have no answers to the question just emotional reactions against it.

My second failure was writing an organized concept of what happened this morning. Again I wrote a lot of words but they are more expressions of moments of thought vs a coherent concept. Perhaps later, once things have settled and I am able to experience the situation in its entirety things will change. For now, I've learned a lot about my corporation and myself. Things that will hopefully make me a better gatekeeper to those who wish to see if they want to join us.

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  1. Please, do write about BB40 (and not just because I like your writing). Not having an answer to the question asked - and having reasons for not having the answer - is an answer in itself. And in my experience, such non-answers are often the more thought-provoking ones.

    And if you have troubles writing up a particular event, there's always the fall back of stream of consciousness (if used judiciously).

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