The best part is that I can blame it all on Poetic Stanziel for voting for us.
It seems like it was a very mirrored team and today we went down. So we have 2 loses and 2 wins, whatever that means. While disappointing, so far everyone is having fun. There has been a lot of participation from people and the general mood has been enjoyment of the event.
I wonder if I am supposed to talk our side up and theirs down and/or make excuses. I have none of those things. We're not perfect by any means. I am disappointed but not personally. I'm disappointed because those around me are disappointed and I wish I could fix it, but I can't.
There was still so much last minute running around, sorting, switching, changing, buying, shoving people into ships and everything coming down to the wire. It makes me a bit angry. Not game breakingly, go play something else you are having a exorcist type fit angry. Just frustrated. Things were a bit more organized this time due to a lot of work put in this morning. It is still herding cats and last minute spells of panic as people still manage not to have things at the last minute.
I think we got everything handed to everyone with 5 minutes to spare.
There are a lot of other things that go on beyond the end results that everyone sees. Trying to manage as many independent people as we have that want to participate is hard. Just selecting pilots is hard. There are many egos on board. I'm glad so many people are popping up out of the woodwork but it causes yet another dynamic issue that has to be sorted. Who is going to fly? How to pick? Are there issues of fairness in letting everyone get a chance to fly or do you pick a 'top few' and tell others to deal.
Sometimes, I'm not sure how we get things organized to even have the proper number of ships on the field for these things. I've avoided coms completely. The chatoic swirl as the finally seconds tick down is too much for my organized, preplanning mind.
Someone asked me, how is logistics hard? Just go to Jita and have Red Frog deliver stuff. While that makes sense and would be lovely, its never so quick and cut and dried as that. Maybe if we just had more stuff on hand. We already had a lot of stuff but there always seems to be a need to this exact piece of stuff that we happen not to have. I wasn't flying so I did the errand work.
I haven't watched the match. I doubt I will. I'm not qualified to comment on it regardless. To a point, its all above my head. This has not given me a taste for competition. I'm trying to focus on the fact that other people enjoy all of this and just support those people to the best of my abilities. Its a we time not a me time.
I won't be participating from the side lines next weekend as that I have to work. I think we go up against Goonsquad. We win or we're done with the tournament. Or something like that.
I think my concepts of fun are much more relaxed and casual. But then, I have been accused of not being a serious gamer as well.
Fit discussions are already exploding across chat and discussions are up on what to do. Cat Herding begins again. I'm going to let myself have this little dream that decisions are made concrete with plenty of time to spare and that ships and fits are all set up and ready to go without last minute chaos.
Me, I am still not into the entire thing as something that is fun. Its more stressful then anything else. Someone told me that the fun comes from the winning. I dunno, I don't find the winning any different from the losing, its all stressful to accomplish and I just don't get enough out of 'victory' for this type of situation to understand the appeal. I also don't gamble. It is very much a matter of personality.
But I will say that I take the entire thing very much to heart. Its a side effect of caring about people I suspect.
My song to salute the weekends efforts on all sides and by all parties involved is Riahanna: I'll Drink to that.
However, today there is an alternate song as well. When I discused my selection, I was told that Diz's pick was better.
"Cheers (Drink To That)"
Cheers to the freakin' weekend
I drink to that, yeah yeah
Oh let the Jameson sink in
I drink to that, yeah yeah
Don't let the bastards get ya down
Turn it around with another round
There's a party at the bar everybody put your glasses up and I drink to that
I drink to that.
Life's too short to be sittin' round miserable
People gon' talk whether you doing bad or good, yeah
Got a drink on my mind and my mind on my money, yeah
Looking so bomb, gonna find me a honey
Got my Ray-Bans on and I'm feelin' hella cool tonight, yeah
Everybody's vibin' so don't nobody start a fight, yeah-ah-ah-ah
Cheers to the freakin' weekend
I drink to that, yeah yeah
Oh, let the Jameson sink in
I drink to that, yeah yeah
Don't let the bastards get ya down
Turn it around with another round
There's a party at the bar everybody put your glasses up and I drink to that
I drink to that.
'Bout to hop on the bar, put it all on my card tonight, yeah.
Might be mad in the morning but you know we goin' hard tonight
It's getting coyote ugly up in here, no tyra
It's only up from here, no downward spiral
Got my Ray-Bans on and I'm feelin' hella cool tonight, yeah
Everybody's vibin' so don't nobody start a fight, yeah
Cheers to the freakin' weekend
I drink to that, yeah yeah
Oh let the Jameson sink in
I drink to that, yeah yeah
Don't let the bastards get ya down
Turn it around with another round
There's a party at the bar everybody put your glasses up and I drink to that
I drink to that.
Cheers to the freakin weekend
I drink to that, yeah yeah
Oh let the Jameson sink in
I drink to that, yeah yeah
Don't let the bastards get ya down
Turn it around with another round
There's a party at the bar everybody put your glasses up and I drink to that
I drink to that.
And I drink to that.
I drink to that.
And I drink to that.
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