I still don't understand how 4 T1 cruisers and a rifter are going to come out positively with 2 talos and 2 hurricanes. Then, a falcon decloaks and everyone just explodes in a nice, bright light.
I don't consider possibly killing a ship that is bigger then I am but ultimately everyone dying in fleet a good fight or fun. Gods knows ships are going to explode. I have zero problems with throwing myself into the fray for the greater good of the fleet and battle. Sometimes shit just isn't going to work out and bad things will happen. I don't understand what the point is of taking a battle that you know is bad from the very start. I really, really am not getting it. I'm trying to do things that others swear to me is fun. It's not anymore fun to do then it was conceptually.
I also don't like null sec. I have not yet found anything about it that makes it worth going into over empire space.
I don't think I should win everything. I don't understand jumping into something that you can not emerge from in the vague chance that maybe something magical will happen. I guess that makes me risk adverse and not fun. Perhaps, I don't have the proper mindset for PvP. When everything about a situation says 'don't go' and you ignore that all to go, I guess you shouldn't be surprised.
The sad part is I fell to peer pressure to go and do something I didn't want to and didn't have the comfort level to do. But I always think I must be missing something since other people want to do it.
I guess what I'm considering to be fun in the game is to miserable and boring. Its one of those moments when you wonder if paths are dividing again.
I do like the game however. I guess I'm just going to have to change who I hang out with. Such is the life of a social game.