I've been hovering around 2.5 bil for a few weeks now. Up and down and around it. After refitting my Myrm I plunged down to about 4.873 which really upset me. I dragged it back to 2.497 for a while and then sat there. Then I started doing missions in an effort to finally crack down and get my standing with Republic Fleet over a 7.
Its been misery. The value for the time is pathetic. I make around 1mil a mission in the end. Sometimes less, now and then more, but rarely. I've completed three storyline missions in that time. That's a lot of freaking missions I've done since it is 16 missions for each storyline. It makes me want to vomit in a corner.
Anyway, it leaves me feeling relitlvey valueless and useless and bad at Eve. I deffenetly consider my ability to have to do with how much isk I can bring in on my own. Due to my soemwhat sideways career path in game, i've not developed my pewpew skills beyond what they were back in december. My defensive abilities are better and thats the only reason that I can hang around long enough to finish the missions.
Although that isn't saying much. One mission yesterday left me like this, twice.
To save on repair costs I've taken to carrying around armor repairers, docking, switching fittings, undocking, repairing myself, redocking, switching back, and going back to the mission. If I didn't, the cost to repair myself would outweighs all my mission rewards each day. I'm already irritated at how much ammo I go through considering I miss 80% of the time.
Anyway, as always, I hate security missions and they leave me feeling inadequate and shitty at eve. Same thing I go on about every time. However, in an attempt to rebalance my opinion of myself in game, I tried to look at the bigger picture.
In the past two months I've been working to fit into ships that have long train times on them. My Viator was 16 days at level 5 + 4 days to level 4 = 20 days to get in. I am currently halfway through cruiser V to get into my Oneiros. I have 10 days left on that 20 day skill. I then have 2 weeks to finish two other skills to V before I can sit in the Oneiros. It will then be about 25 days to get Logistics to V. I plan to stop at Logi 4 for a few weeks and top off my cap skills before topping up to Logistics V. However, at 4 I should be a somewhat solid Logistics ship.
I then plan to freeze everything and finish poor Chella's core skills to 5's and sit her a bit more solidly into things.
So, making isk on my own will not be easy. Sometimes I do courier contracts if a lucrative one pops up. However, I had to look at the value of my assets.
My Oni is a 100mil isk ship.
My Viator is a 100mil isk ship.
My 3 Myrms averge 45mil each.
I have assorted other stuff that's not interesting.
I just realized Noctis prices are going insane and they ar now 65 mil. I got both of mine for just under 50, 3 months ago.
So I guess, asset wise, its not awful. None of the ships are priced at world shattering numbers. I don't have dozens of 'elite' ships. I don't want them however. I stick to what I can use. I worry that I'll get my Oni popped the first time I take it out. That is irritating because I really really hate to spend isk.
Most of my corp wound up logging on and I felt a bit happier in game. I got my wolf fitted out properly.