Mile Marker V

I have completed the longest train I have ever done, followed by the previous longest train. I feel pretty good about it. A bit proud. There are always those that will say, "Oh you are only just getting that, come back when you've trained Titan Five for the 23rd time."

Whatever.

I'm happy.

Lately there has been idea tossing about getting rid of this skill and shortening that skill. I tend to disagree with them because I don't dislike the skill training program as it currently stands. It can be frustrating and fretful. And there is always the want of now, now, now. But, if we get it all now what happens to the warm, rich satiation of finishing a huge skill train?

This isn't the only one I am on.

My link alt is on her last specialization link, completing that training program. Chella has a 11 days left on Gallente Carrier V. I'll then start her on Amarr Carrier. My dreadnought alt is almost ready to take delivery of her ship. Even Sugar is chewing through level five skills at a steady enough pace.

I don't know what to do with all of myself. I say that in truth, not jest. On one side I have all of these abilities. On the other, I've not used them. I can technically tout myself as a capital pilot. I could market myself that way. "I fly things. Lots of things. Lots of really, really slow things!" But I am an unblooded one. I don't feel like a capital pilot. I just feel like me. Unsure and prone to over thinking things.

The capital training is all part of my toolbox. Chella can move my stuff. My JF alt employs most of my time. My dread alt will soon be able to burn in our monthly capital welp. It is a lot like my battleship abilities. When the FCs call for 'whateverthefuckcat' which is some battleship fleet or another that I can't keep straight and always check the forums to make sure I've undocked the proper thing, I can and do undock it and do what needs to be done with it. My enjoyment comes from filling that niche not being in the niche. The capital ships are like that too..

I also want a Rorqual. I don't need a Rorqual but along the way of all that training it wasn't hard to have my JF alt cross train into a Rorqual and give her a clone bay. Now I want one. Badly. With zero need to have it. But shiny.

Maybe toooooo shiny...